Letting Go Of My Body Insecurities…

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I mentioned in my first swimsuit post of the year here that I avoided buying swimsuits over the past two years. Shortly after giving birth to my son a little over two years ago, I learned that I had Diastasis Recti. (This is a separation of the abdominal wall. I encourage you to look into this if you have given birth before. You can do a quick and simple at-home test to see if you have it.) I have been petite my whole life. I am 5’2” and usually weighed between 108 and 112 pounds, unless I was pregnant. I didn’t used to eat healthy, but I was very active with gymnastics, my horses and working out growing up, so the weight stayed off. Since I have such a petite frame, it was very easy for me to see that something wasn’t right a month after having my son and my stomach was still bulging as if it was several months pregnant, though in a very odd shape. If I lied on my back and leaned up, it formed a gross football shape. That’s when I started researching what was going on with my stomach and learned I had Diastasis Recti.

Having Diastasis Recti has been a real struggle for me. Not only for self-conscious reasons, but it was also causing me back and stomach pain. Despite having Diastasis Recti and not being able to work out much, I was able to get down to about 120 pounds with healthy eating. But I couldn’t lose the rest of the weight and tone up like I used to without being able to exercise. I cut out gluten (for other health reasons I have) about two months ago and finally got back down to my pre-pregnancy weight of 110 pounds. I still can’t work out hardcore since I have Diastasis Recti, so I am not toned like I want to be, but I am happy that healthy eating has helped me lose my pregnancy weight. Since my stomach still bulges, it’s caused me to be very self-conscience. It is less noticeable now than it was in the beginning, but I still have a three-finger gap between my abdominal walls.

Not only do I have Diastasis Recti, but I also breast feed both my children. I went to almost one year with my daughter and a little over two years with my son. This took a toll on my breasts, which also has made me self-conscious. I religiously applied lotion and oils to my belly and boobs to avoid stretch marks, but for some reason with my first pregnancy I didn’t think my butt would grow and I wound up with stretch marks on my bum. With my son, my stomach got so huge that just at the belly button I had stretch marks that have shriveled up, making it look like I have loose skin above my belly button only. It makes my belly button look rather large and awkward. Lastly, I was never blessed with a large behind, so finding any bottoms to fit it has always been a huge task for me.

So yes, I may look thin, but, like anybody else, I have many of my own insecurities and trouble finding clothing and swimsuits to fit my body type. When I was approached by Target to work with them on their #NOFOMO campaign encouraging women of all ages and body types to rethink their approach to swimsuit season, I quickly re-thought my own insecurities and decided to finally learn to let go of them and love my body. I gladly joined their campaign.

Last month, I ordered four suits off Target.com, and I was more than thrilled with how well two of the suits fit me and complemented my body type. I returned the other two adorable suits only because they didn’t fit my body type. What I love about shopping for swimsuits at Target is that they believe there is a swimsuit for all ages, races, budgets and body types. Having found two awesome suits last month that were budget-friendly, I wanted to try my luck again and placed another online order. This time, I ordered about twelve suits and found four that worked perfectly for my body type and made me feel confident. All of the suits were super cute and I was sad they didn’t work out, but I was more than happy with the ones that did.

First up, we have this adorable black-and-white, vintage-style one-piece with an adorable front cutout. I love the front bow detail and stripes. It keeps you relatively covered up but looking sexy at the same time. It’s also very affordable at $29.99.

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This next suit is one of my favorites for hitting the beach in. I feel very confident and secure in this monokini. The top holds in everything and has a sports-bra-type feel to it so I don’t have to worry about anything falling out. It fits around my bum really well, and the monokini design helps hide the bulge in my stomach. I absolutely love the bright floral design on this suit as well. This suit is a little more at $39.99, but totally worth it!

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This last suit is also a monokini with a little more fun, strappy detailing to it. I love the fun tribal print and braided side strap. It fits me well, including the bum area. I feel very confident in it. This suit is also just $29.99.

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None of the stores near me carried these one-piece suits or monokini, so I would recommend looking online to see if your store carries them before running to the store to buy them. If you purchase online like I did, I recommend ordering your usual swimsuit size for these suits. I ordered my usual size and they fit just right. In case they don’t work out for you, returns are simple. You can take them back to the store, but you can also mail them back. Right now, Target.com has an awesome promotion on swimsuits. They are buy one get one 50% off, plus you can get 20% off a $75 order!

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    Karen Yannacio Morse

    Thanks for sharing your story – very brave of you. And you look stunning… seriously.
    Karen | GlamKaren.com


    you look AMAZING!! get it girl!!

    xoxo, Preeti


    omg girl you look amazing!! and those suits… I want every single one of them! so fab!!

    Brooke Webb

    Thanks for sharing with us…we all have our own insecurities. BUT I can say, you look absolutely AMAZING and have a killer body. The suits fit you like a glove and you are rocking each style. Gorgeous lady, just gorgeous!

    Brooke | http://www.kbstyled.com

    Adaleta Avdic

    You look absolutely fantastic & I love these adorable swimsuits! xx adaatude.com


    Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story about your insecurities! You look absolutely stunning in these bathing suits!!

    The Frugal Fashionista

    Taylor McLemore

    First off, you look absolutely amazing!!! Seriously, you are rocking all of those bikinis! Thank you so much for being so open with your struggles. No one is perfect and we all have insecurities, you’ve created two beautiful lives and while your body has changed you still look amazing!

    Taylor | http://www.styleiseverythingblog.com

    Shelbi Adams

    Girl you look AMAZING! I know we all have our struggles and will always compare ourselves to others but know that you are such an inspiration! Loved your vulnerability in your post!

    Signed by,
    Shelbi | http://www.itsallchictome.com

    DeAnna Branigan Keller

    Thank you for sharing your story! I recently found out I have the same thing after thinking I had a hernia. I think you look great!

    Brooke Ellen

    You are so amazing for sharing this story!!! You are also a beautiful woman and you are rocking those bathing suits!!! I myself would never even step outside in a bathing suit let alone take pictures for my blog in them!!



    You look amazing in these suits! I have never heard of this condition before and I am so sorry to hear it caused you so much pain!

    Amanda Ray

    You look so lovely!! Thank you for sharing your story! <3


    Amanda | http://www.TheChambrayBunny.com

    Christina Beauchamp

    Loved hearing your story! You look absolutely gorgeous in these photos and those suits are so so fun!

    xo, Christina

    Christina | Fashion & Frills